2.04.2007

Follow the Leader



I am happy with where I am at, but I am still somehow unsatisfied. I wish I could just be content. I wish I could not wonder, or want... Sometimes I wish I could see where I was going. Most of the time, I wish that I am satisfied that I am follwing Someone who knows where we're headed.

2.02.2007

Fred


Recently I got these "MonKeys" So that I can tell my keys apart. A lot of my keys are the same color and same shape and I go through minutes everyday trying to pull out the right one to get into my apartment etc. Anyway, I checked out the company that makes my MonKeys (http://www.worldwidefred.com/goods.htm) And they are amazing! They have so many things I really want...but...will probably never buy. That's what dreams are for right? Something to look forward to? Like...a dream home...

I have a problem with my sink plug sealing and I thought this was hilarious and cute.
And these coffee cups were unique, playful and funny.

2.01.2007

Pepto-Bismol







Is for: nausea, heart burn, indigestion, upset stomach, diarrhea!


Haha.

Chamber Music


So today I have a Chamber Winds concert. And I'm really excited. But I'm also kind of anxious. I play on two of the music selections: Parthia for two solo horns by Krommer and "Sept Dances" by Francaix.

I love both the pieces. Krommer is like solo clarinet flourishes with horn duo. It's stressful and in every rehearsal the tempos varied. Sometimes I felt like I was rushing, other times dragging. In the Francaix it's all gravy except one lick at the end of the third movement. Anyway, regardless of what happens I'm sure I'll perform fine...It's just that it's the last two pieces. I have to sit there and wait for that. It's not going to be easy. Especially because it is an atrium concert and it's so cold outside, all the people walking in and out is going to bring in the cold...

Anyway, once I am up there performing these feelings will go away. Until then I'm just going to feel like I'm holding my breath underwater, waiting to come up and breathe.

1.30.2007

Would you?




If you could see where you would be in 10 years, would you?

1.29.2007

Missing...



I really miss Oklahoma and my family right now.


P.S. This year is Oklahoma's Centenial...Yeehaw for that!

1.28.2007

Post Card


Gwenn-
I love post cards. They sell them here in cafes and book stores and those cheap trinket shops. My kitchen and refridgerator are covered in postcards. Dizzy Gillespie, old houses, cat woman, a girl with a pony, two women holding a parasol laughing on a beach in ancient bathing suits, the ones that cover everything up except your knees. It's about time I sent them.

Everytime I see a postcard, I think of you. And the postcards I lost in North Carolina. Oh they said great things on them. I wrote them during rehearsals. Amazing music. Like Debussy Nocturnes and Beethoven Symphonies and Hindemith Mathis der Mahler. I got to play a great part on that piece. It was amazing until the third or fourth movement. The damn violas weren't with the rest of the string section and I'm trying to figure out what the hell is going on....and the first oboe gets done playing her solo just as miffed as I am and I have to come in...but which of the three tempos do I take? No one is together and it's totally stressing me out and the minute the conductor stops to work with the strings I pull out a post card and release everything to you, Gwenn.

Anyway, I'm really sorry those post cards never made it anywhere. I was secretly hoping someone would find them and drop them in the mail. I thought I packed them. But something always seems to disappear when you travel from one place to the next. Like I lost those post cards. And flying from home to Cincinnati I lost a blue cardigan by Lux. My favorite. I swore I packed it. Right on top. Or on my way from Israel to JFK I know I lost a set of post cards and some charms from Rachov Ben Yehuda m'lev Yerushalim. Anyway, today I might pick up more post cards and start writing to you again. Right now you seem like a different person to me. I don't know what it is. Do you?

Anyway, Things have felt weird this weekend. I've been ruminating....I really wish you were here right now. Sometimes the one thing you need is that best friend who has known you through all your years of puberty, bad boyfriends, crazy rebellion, car accidents, everything and then college. I just need a big fat huge dose of Gwennliness. When am I going to see you next???

Love you Gwenn,

Lez

1.27.2007

*****


I don't feel like myself today. I hate it.

1.26.2007

I love Friday!




















I only have one class! So plenty of time to practice extra, grab lunch, workout, etc. I might even actually get groceries too! Haha. I've been living off of what little is left in my kitchen. A box of cereal. Crackers. A couple horrible oranges that are too dry. Tostitos. So unhealthy. But I just don't want to bother with groceries. ARG! Underlying issue here is: I should tackle the things I always avoid. Like the bank, the grocery store, Fed-ex. It's about time I stopped procrastinating about certain things. Oy. And I thought today was all about practicing and working out. Oh boo!

Crazy-love!




I am a hopeless romantic. Every possible interest I have I scrutinize. I wonder if he could be the one, I look to see how we're compatible, I look to see the irony and beauty of it; I look to see how numbers fit together in it; how our colors match; how songs work with it too. I'm crazy. love. crazy-love!

and now, I am being kicked out of this wonderful little coffee shop at 1:00 am because that is when it closes. I'm thinking about working here... perhaps after the summer. Perhaps sooner. Depends.

1.25.2007

Airport Dud


So back during Thanksgiving, my parents got me a last minute flight to OKC. Originaly my mother had planned on visiting me. But she's not the traveling type. She's a homebody at heart and traveling makes her nervous. And besides, it's tough for a family to be apart on Thanksgiving. So I took a last minute flight out of Cincinnati.

I was rushing to get through security because I am always in a rush. Maybe it's that whole Interlochen mentality of: "To be early is to be ontime, to be on time is to be late." So I've got the whole airport routine down pat. My shoes are off the minute I approach security because I am speed demon....but not everyone is a speed demon. I'm almost through securityand currently waiting for my backpack to come through with my shoes. Some stud was putting on his shoes and I didn't really take much notice him other than his existence. He was having a hard time and taking forever. Not a speed demon, like self. So I slipped my shoes on (Tip: always wear comfy, good walking slip-ons). And then I started to swing my backpack over my shoulder. *Wham* Knocked the stud over. Shoot! Helped him up and apologised. Then I noticed a sax case over his shoulder. So I asked him if he went to CCM (my school). He did. And we introduced ourselves and walked to the train that would wisk us to our bus that would transport us to Terminal C (Delta Terminal of CVG). So we hit it off and spent the next couple of hours digressing and waiting for our planes. It seemed like we really hit it off. But of course, you can't think too much of such meetings. Why have expectations?

So I went home. Had turkey and forgot about said stud. I also forgot that I would see him in Wind Symph. back at CCM. Well, I would expect said stud to not be dud and never say hello. The dud sits right behind me for 2 hours twice a week and I can turn around and say hello!!!! Sup with that? So said stud is now a real dud. Maybe he isn't. But there's no way he couldn't recognise me. I don't think I've met anyone who looks like me. And I'll be honest, I didn't remember him at first. But still. I said hello....(I don't remember dud's name. But I will find it on tonight's concert program. Why? I don't know. Maybe so that I can further make him feel bad by remembering his name...which I didn't remember. And one more problem. He's not the only sax player back there. Which one has which name? On second hand effort seems a waste.)

Anyway, after several hellos with a vegitative response I've given up on being polite or even further aquainting with this fellow. My teacher calls it dead fish. You shake someone's hand and it's limp. Airport Dud is totally Dead Fish.

1.24.2007

Wednesday...out and over


So all day today I stressed out about EVERYTHING. I spent the end of last week crunching for classes and for my ASAP course. And then all day Friday and Saturday I was in class, so I didn't exactly get the practice time in that I had wanted to because I didn't find out my presentation material until the Friday class so I spent Friday night until the wee hours of Saturday working on my Saturday presentation. And then Sunday I was in class all day. When I got out I went to bed. But I still did my best for my lesson. Makes me feel like I can do even more for next week's lesson. Gosh...I can't wait for tomorrow and the next day. I want to be done with the wood shedding on Rossini and just be in the polishing artsy phase where all you do is analyze why you don't sound like Sharon Kam or Mr. Neidich.

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Dear Mr. Neidich,

You play Rossini too fast. I'd advise laying off the expressos and prozac. I can't keep up. I hate your guts.

Sincerely,

LW

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Dear chavera Sharon,

You sound so good. I hate you too.

Yours truly,

LW

Citizens of Humanity




So I bought this vest by Citizens of Humanity on shopbop.com. They were 70% off and I've been trying to find a vest for a while. I have some long sleeve shirts that I like to pair with different outfits and this is the sort of thing I could use. Plus it's sophisticated, creates layers, and most importantly I like. I truly believe this is my most superficial post yet....

1.23.2007

$$$


So today I made a little dough. And it's always nice to be putting money in the bank rather than taking it out, but I'm having the hardest time finding work right now :( On all other fronts things are looking up. Yay!

And Follow... Follow... follow.


"Try to remember
The kind of September
When life was slow
And oh so mellow
Try to remember
The kind of September
When grass was green
And grain was yellow ...
Deep in December
It's nice to remember
The fire of September
That made us mellow
Deep in December
Our hearts should remember
And follow ... follow ... follow ..."

I Used To Be Patient...

What happened?

1.22.2007

Case of the Mundays...



Not quite. I had a tough time getting out of bed. But once I got rolling I got a lot done. Things went well. Instead of being one of those days where you can't get one thing right and it's just one thing after the next, I got a lot done and things that normally get screwed up went really well. T'was super. Anyway. Still a ways to go. Another four days to be exact. But a fresh, clean start doesn't hurt.

1.21.2007

Movie Review


The Last Kiss: 4 stars

Great movie about a man encroaching his thirties and reaching a plateau. His main concern is that his life might end up being unpredictable. He gets a little lost but he learns that the love is experienced through actions not emotions. Zach Braff gives a great performance. I love him...The rest of the cast is hot too.

Snow Day

Here is my picture story:

I woke-up to my Women and Law teacher, Maggie, calling me to cancel class. I was so exstatic I went outside to revel in the snow! Oh snow...I love you!



Then Asher got upset that I was having all the fun so I let him out. And he got to see his first snow.

He did't know what it was and he started acting like a crazy cat...well, he is a crazy cat.

He decided to dig it all up and eat it!

And then he realized there were still birds around. But it was too cold so we went back inside.

Where he destroyed an imaginary pink bird.

And took a nap.

Before round two.

1.20.2007

So Real

Here I am, looking out the window, watching the rain fall and seeing the people moving through it. The rhytmic taps on the ground, the surrounding chatter, the casual music; it's all surreal.
Surreal... do you think that means "so real"? Like suddenly it hits you how real everything is. Because earlier we were moving through the rain, ignoring it and doing our business; not really paying attention.





And then you watch other people move through it, going on with their business. And you realize how involved in your business you are. You remember the many things that you ignore, that you forget. You remember how small you are in this world; you remember how special you and each person are; you remember that everyone plays a part in this world, somehow, and you are another unique part of it.

It's ironic. A surreal experience doesn't feel real at all, but at a closer look, it reminds you of what is real.